kaishijji

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im feeling Home.

i think we've lost her!

2004-10-31T22:43:43Z

IMPROV SHOW ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PERFORMING AT THE AVALON ROCKED SOME MORE!!!!!!!!!!! SO MANY PEOPLE!!!!!! AND THE DRESDEN DOLLS ROCKED. SO BASICALLY....................euphoric

Jesse in forground, leah is against his back, yael backstage, linz and may have backs to the audience

in order: may, linz, you can sorta see jesse, leah, stash, me

same order!

sameeee order!

jesse and leah getting cut by chris, stash and i dancing...sorta.. on the right

stash and i MENIACLE, LIBIDINOUS smiles!

may, stash, leah, jesse, chris, linz-walzing...sorta

yael, with household tools to get jiggy with, jesse, chris, leah, may with the dustbuster/VIBRATOR...or something..

leah, my head, yael in white dress, you can sorta see may behind her, the a scramble of jesse, linz and stash holding back chris

ORGASM SLASH. DEATHHH part: me, may, chris holding yael, behind them and to the left is jesse unbuttoning his shrit in front of leah, who you cant see, and on the right is stash and linz

yaaay

in 1983

2004-10-10T13:58:21Z

SATs are OVER!!!!!!!!!!! and it wasn't that bad at all. Lyra was there! and we sat next to each other, finishing within seconds of each other for every section. it was so funny, we were dressed almost exactly the same.

after SATs i slept, then had work, which was fun because we got into a couple ice fights RAR.

annnnnnnnddddddd after that went to Stash's house and THAT was fun. a lot of people were there and the cops came around one which was scccccarrrrrrryyy, but nothing happened. i left soon after that. now i have work again...and am going to try and read some of Dante's inferno and work on applications a little bit. sigh. sigh. sigh. sigh. im not getting into college...

kaishijji @ 2004-10-07T19:53:00

2004-10-08T00:01:39Z

so i printed some of the photo's today. i think they came out pretty well. yaaaaaaay
i've been having such a good/bad week. on ONE hand it's been really good because i've been interested in every class (with perhaps the exception of astronomy, which can get a little astray- but actually that has good people in it, so i look forward to that too) on the other hand, i've been sick and so that sucks.

we read the Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock in theology and now i can't get it out of my head. i LOVE that poem. im going to pick up a tape tonight of T.S. Eliot reading it. my grandma used to play it when i was little...im excited.

had a meeting yesterday for the Dresden Dolls show. It was pretty productive. Actually I had a LOT of fun. this is the email i wrote to amanda describing it so YOU can know too:
so what we have so far is a butoh style dance to the song ghostwriter by rjd2. it starts out with two people, a girl and a boy, in disheveled business suits, tied together coming onstage to answer two ringing red (old fashioned) phones. when they pick up, an old 1940s new-report starts up-but it's not understandable...it also overlaps a mutated, distorted low whisper. tttttthhhhheeen the 40's voice counts down from ten. after "one" this sound um um like a high-pitched rocket zooming loudly towards you. it stops dead, the boy slams down the phone while the girl simultaneously drops it. the music starts as the butoh dancers come on doing a waltz. the boy and girl sort of travel around with their rope, with the dancers grab hold of and start using. it's unclear which order of events will happen next, but it will go something like: the music climaxes, their is a loud (perhaps not terrified, but wildly grief-stricken) scream, the dancers merge into a large ball of a stretching, breathing mass with the phone cord. over this period the business man and women are straitening themselves up so that by the end they look "normal" and are ready to go to work or wherever. we have yet to tie in the phone at the end...we having another long meeting soon in which this issue will be addressed.

...if anyone is reading this and is in the group and i made a mistake in what happens, please let me knowwwwwwww.

i came home today at three and SLEPT UNTIL SIX. YEAAAAAAAAA but now i have a bunch of homework to finish. WAH.

most love BONK

and at the center of it all!

2004-10-04T00:06:12Z

Ok. I am going to write at LEAST five times this week. I will. I haven't even been writing in my paper journal, just gluing in things.
so im sickish right now. but i dont care because i have SATs this weekend and i shouldnt be going out much till they're over anywiffes. this saturday night though........................oh christ. i cannot wait.

so we have a new improv troupe! it's FANTASTIC. although the callback were amazing (i mean really incredible-everyone was), it didn't take us long to cast the troupe. and im so happy with this new one-i mean, i feel completely comfortable and 130% confident in everyone. also i think i can learn a lot from working with them. im hopping excited for our first meeting tuesday.

alright, i have not washed my hair since wednesday. it's rather unfortunate. so im going to tonight. swear to beans.

this weekend has been nice despite the sickishness. i was dreading yesterday because i had a ten hour shift at the flick, but i got a lot of work done...and it was fun too.

on friday night the new DEGRASSI season started! holy fuck. it goes there. yea. (and for godsakes does anyone know where to get those craig t-shirts?)

lastly, i'm purchasing a (yes.) $177 alarm clock that simulates the sunrising. becaaaaaaaaause ive discovered i reallyyyy love the early morning-almost more than late night-IF i wake up slowly. so...ok large purchase, but it will be a good investment. dont laugh. or...laugh...but dont jeer. or, jeer, but don't kill me, please.

ciao loves!

in the dark of the matinee

2004-09-26T23:34:05Z

today i went to Spy Pond to take photo's of my sisters. we brought pillow, blankets, lightbulbs and a lamp. gracie didn't like getting her socks wet. it was fun.

greetings from ?

2004-09-21T00:14:00Z

hi
im kate
im dumb
and i left my lj logged on.
i have a very immature younger sister who finds it delighful to write in my journal while i am at yoga, unaware of this.
so, a poem, from me to you:
(because its what i do...ba dum CH)
i am kate
i am always late
for brushing my hair
i am kate
do i believe in fate?
who cares
i am kate
the eldest of the three
i am kate
i like to save tree(s)
i dont eat meat
or dairy products
i just watched totally obsessed
there was a women who believed her ducks (were her children)
i am kate
i like yoga
i am kate
i dont think i've ever worn a toga
i am kate
i am great
except when im...............not...
i am not really k.lane
10 trillion kate points
if you can guess my real name

Michael, you're the boy with all the leather hips,sticky hair,sticky hips, stubble on my sticky lips

2004-09-20T22:38:13Z

i adore Franz Ferdinand. chris let me borrow their cd and i can't stop listening to it. for anyone who hasn't bought it yet: DO!
i also bought the new bjork cd today...which is weird because it's been out for awhile now and i just got it. oh well. and i got gray the postal service cd.
ALSO, i got this NIFTY digital tape recorder. for playwriting. im excited about that hehe

YOGA TONIGHT! thank god! i love our teacher so much. he's such a frootloop. but so cool. and i had a theology summer reading test today that i need to unwind from (it turned out to be not bad at all, i just was worried about it all weekend)

sooooo school is going well. I love my classes. i can't think of one that i don't like.

i need to re-do my henna tattoo...it came off in the shower yesterday... :(:(

i played apples to apples for the FIRST time saturday! i've been hearing about it for months and never got the opportunity to play! hazzah!

wonk!

it's getting cold out. i like this type of cold though, the way it drifts off people when they come in from the outside. i hope we will maybe build fires in our fireplace this year.

i'm reading FRANNY AND ZOOEY....it's a bing of fun. funny

i miss college people. eliza called saturday night and we chatted a little. i miss her a lot...and everyone

ummmmm speaking of college. sigh. my college essays are...coming along...like fat snails......

loveeeep

trip to boston for hennnaaaa

2004-09-14T02:10:00Z

where is my education is

2004-09-10T01:14:07Z

There is a large, very colorful, expanding hole bustling around in my insides. It often says to me, in a charming, siren-like voice, "Oh, Kate, my dear, come hug and fill me with spicy things." Often at these times I nod vigorously and set out to fulfill the request asked of me. But like jumping for hot-air balloons, I just cannot seize hold the items asked of me. No matter how energetically I may bounce, or how winged my fingers try to be, all I ever get is fatiguing exercise and a good look at a beautiful airship getting smaller and smaller in a deep sky. It is then that I turn to my hole of inquiries and knowledge and say bitterly [but I try and be a good sport about it too], "Large, very colorful, expanding hole bustling around in my insides, I as well share your hunger for the unfamiliar, but it seems that you may never be filled." Then I take a deep breath, exhale the dramatics, and say in earnest, "However! I'm willing to keep searching if you will forever pester me." And the hole promptly agrees, and reminds me that although I did not find anything to fill him, I found enough to broaden him larger once again.

then what makes then what makes then what makes LOVEEEE?

2004-09-06T01:34:19Z

what is even better then coming back from loud busy new york to quiet calm lexington? going from lexington to the beachhhh!

my family [mom, dad, gray, selena, and "florida"-our grandma on our dad's side who's stayed with us this summer] went to plymouth to visit our grandparents on my moms side for two reasons: one/traditionally we celebrate my dad and my grandpa's birthday on laborday weekend because they are right close to eachother by this weekend. and two/my grandpa was recently admitted to the hospital for [which we found out today] THREE ulcers. which we're all very happy to hear, ironically, because it means it's not cancer or anything so malignant. YAY.

so we visited grammpy and gave him birthday cards and he looked weak, but otherwise happy and well.

then to dinner at this verrrryyy old restaurant...which ACTUALLY turned out to be a NICE family dinner. usually someone fights, or SOMETHING happens. but everyone was in high spirits and the grandma's got plumpy drunk together [my mom and dad to a glow], and we three sisters had fun putting veal into one another's drinks. or maybe that was just me and selena to gracie's water [ending with beans and i in hysterics, as well as me spitting water on the water, and gracie cluelessly asking "what?...what?..." after she had had a drink]

my dad seemed very happy with the presents, which was all a relief to us because he's so hard to please. I got him "the best of the who" CD because one/he loves the who and two/ because when we were little he would play "boris the spider" on the phonograph and have us all dance around to it. dancing around, or just flaily limbs and bouncing, seems to be a family- and lyra- tradition now that i think of it. all together, i think it was one of the best nights together we've had as a family-in part because my dad i think finally finally feels like he's a part of the family and is appreciated for everything he's done. he wrote this email:
Guys, er, Ladies:

You may not have perceived this but last night was one of the best birthdays. It was so nice to have fun with all of you—the presents were all terrific—well thought out, unique, (well-wrapped!) and a surprise, too! Thanks much. I look forward to the music, imbibing, admiring and, ahem, trying not to drool over Ms. Raye into the food while cooking a 30 minute meal for you.*

Thanks double much. Really great time.

You all looked fabbbbuuulllousss!

Love Dad & Wm

:D!

tooodaaaayyyy was nice because i got up and went swimming with THE GRAY in FREEEZING atlantic ocean waters...and the waves were bumbling high and fuuuunn. but i got cold too quickly. which sucked. also nice political talk with bobo...she's going to send me her New Yorkers every month after she reads them because i miss them...so that's nice. mom, gray, sel and i went to H&M on the way home and i got a *gasp* DRESS which is FUN. it's like a cross dressing skirt that wants to be dress it's so bouncy and fun. annnnnnnnd ate a lot. which was gooood annnnnndddddd now im going to read. ok! love

*Gracie got him a Ms. Raye cookbook because a/my dad likes to cook and b/because she thought he had a crush on her

http://hfradio.org/k1oik/files/17_paul%20&%20paula%20-%20hey,%20paula.mp3

2004-08-31T22:18:06Z

Hey Paula

written by Ray Hildebrand
recorded by Paul and Paula

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Paul:
Hey, hey Paula, I wanna marry you
Hey, hey Paula, no one else will ever do
I've waited so long for school to be through
Paula, I can't wait no more for you
My love, my love

Paula:
Hey Paul, I've been waiting for you
Hey, hey, hey Paul, I want to marry you too
If you love me true, if you love me still
Our love will always be real
My love, my love

Both:
True love means planning a life for two
Being together the whole day through
True love means waiting and hoping that soon
Wishes we've made will come true
My love, my love

oh, dear.

2004-08-30T16:18:52Z

.................walked in on my parents last night...........................

hey gracie lane and i are updating our journals at the same time. FREAKY!

2004-08-28T20:46:07Z

soooooooooo last night i had work. which was boring. BUT IT WONT BE SOON BECAUSE GUESS WHO ARE THE NEW EMPLOYEES?!!!
!!!!! CHRIS AND JESS. yea man! wooooooooohoooooo

i saw HERO last night with a bunch of people. the boys thought it was crap, the girl [all two of us] thought it was beautiful. maybe it would have just been better silent. anyway, oh-maybe-just MAYBE due to the fact that i was a unsober, i kept thinking about how it was taking on the american republican views. oh ahhah and i had spend break at the flick watching 9/11 again.

i'm COVERED in bitty bug bites from lying around at the feild two nights ago.

.....summer is so uninteresting to write about........
but i'm REALLY enjoying myself, don't get me wrong.
um....i've been biking a lot. yes.
uhhh ok!
love

that you made it?

2004-08-27T00:20:03Z

i spent the latter part of my day trying to open a coconut. i finally ended up just smashing it on the front sidewalk...it was worth all the trouble, though, i made a raw foods cheesecake and it rocked the house fo shizzle

today was a reaaaalllyy nice day. i got a up and went biking for a long time...i haven't biked in maybe two years. my legs feel all rubbery now, though.

i want to see HERO.

i should get started on applications.......

and summer reading.
and everything else i said i would do when i get home.
oh well
:)

i want to sit by you`in your big chair`in your big chair`she wants

2004-08-24T20:50:21Z

last night i went to LYRA's with gracie. we got dinner and icecream and then went back to lyra's and watched a bunch of movie's that we had made over the years. I was laughing so hard, but i think my laughter came out all bizare because i was too tired to laugh. it was so good to see lyra, i'd really missed her. i love how we've changed, yea, but changed only in the sense that we've gotten older...we're still exactly the same people, same habits, same humor, same ambition, same imagination, same friendship. she's the closest sister i have that's not blood related. :D maga droot!

in any event, today i have been depressed for absolutely no reason. errr not really depressed, im happy,..i think just unmotivated and also i haven't done anything creative in awhile. besides cooking. hmmmm. hopefully i will get to hang out with stash tonight and maybe others. my mom keeps saying that i can go wherever i want whenever now that i've lived on my own, but she doesnt seem to be on the same wavelength as my dad. huh. well...i have a family get together in a moment. everyone's running late as usual.

on the flip side, im really really enjoying being back in lexington. i missed my friends more than i thought, and my family too. my romie! it's also so quiet here. on the flip side of this flip side, so many friends are leaving so soon. most are going to just go and, despite all the promises, will leave my life too. maybe that's why i'm a little sad today. but i dont know. actually my mood is much improving out of no where.

love

kaishijji @ 2004-08-21T15:38:00

2004-08-21T19:40:30Z

e is for enormous
g is for grapefruit
g is for gritty grease
p is for potted plant
l is for liver
a is for anchovieeeees
n is for nocturnal
t is for TUNNEL.
s is for so not a good rhyme.

i respect and <3 eggplants.

i wish i could put clear nailpolish on my eyelids without going blind.

2004-08-21T16:36:00Z

i saw Fahrenheit 9/11 for the first time thursday night because i couldnt afford it in ny. needless to say, it was very well done. i hope it's opened some minds...or something...

i've been "cooking" raw foods since i've gotten home. it's so much fun...im not going to go all raw foods, but it interests me as far as cooking goes, because it's all about flavor and instinct. no two raw food tastes the same as they do when they're cooked, so you really just go with the flow, which i love.

im reading Frankenstein for theology summer reading and im really liking it-which i didnt expect.

i had work last night and ken says i get my choice of shifts for the next year because since all the seniors are going to college yayyy. i think ill just keep my summer shifts...which means im working both friday and saturday. oh well

has anyone seen GARDEN STATE? we're playing it and i think i might want to see it either tomorrow or monday.

love

first of all, fuck you. second of all, get the fuck away from me. third of all, SHUT UP..

2004-08-19T15:48:50Z

...thanks kerry

new york was greattttttt. i lived with these two guys in brooklyn and we had this fantastic loft in this little polish neighborhood. i was watched four shows get off there feet and two of them were incredible [the above is the postcard for the festival]. my mom and my sister came up for the last two nights and it was so much fun, we went shopping and ate. and that's about all we did but it was soooo much fun.
here is two pictures of one of the shows: [these are also pictures specifically put here for gracie]:

HOW DO YOU LIKE THEM APPLES, GRACIE LANE?!!! BWAHAHAHA

alright. so last night i had to work and that was fun. but what was even better was AFTER work when a bunch of people and i went to this place in the woods and had a little fire and then got lost! weeeeeeeee

LOVE

that there, that's not me.

2004-06-24T13:47:19Z

i am still drunk. i hate how long things stay in my system!
i walked home from mike's two hours ago...it's morning weather, i love that. i should sleep but i cant. i woke up and i thought stash was sleeping by me so i said, "the birds!" in reference to the birds were chirping outside and that he should get home, but it was jeff and he was like, "wha...?" ha
yeaaa last night. weeeeee
im watching the olsen twins right now on some show.
jess is at vassar and i miss her. but i got to talk with her last night on the phone, i dont think either of us understood what the other was saying.
dylan thomas has gorgeous speech. reading him ah ah ah
wrote a poem in the margin of his play, next to the line "with acid love burning in her voice" [!!!!!!!]

i meant,
somewhere somewhere in the stinging
tangles of these words was
my voice that licked and in a twisted shriek, it screams:
you i love you. such a raw whisper vomiting in my stomach with nothing more to say, with nothing more to do,
with you, with you these lips remain unspoken

i think sleep is now the best option
ello vee ee

we are everything under the sun

2004-06-21T17:04:47Z

i hope yall have not forgotten me.......!

hiatus from Lj is sad but. it's even sadder that snjor is away, sob sob sob sob sob sob

i have one more day of finals and then im done with JUNIOR YEAR. it has been horrible and fantastic and most interesting and intense.

um. so. what has been going on?
thinking to much,
so i'm trying to stop and feel more.

reading SOPHIE'S CHOICE and loving it. also just read CALIGULA AND THREE OTHER PLAYS which was brilliant. ALLSSSOOOOO 50% of all books at the used book store====> millions of new books.!.

i leave for new york in a month.
strange dreams have not died either.
also, i have a ceaseless need to need which sucks
and...i am happy.!.

equals w00t x a lot.
yea man ok! love

when you float like a cannon ball

2004-06-06T20:46:38Z

so SATs were yesterday...i got really comfortable in my chair, took off my shoes and sat cross legged. it was nice, actually. i really do like tests like that.
anyway, after i felt so good. i came home and slept for four hours i was so tired out by this week.

later went to see gracie in fall jam and she was soooo good! i yelled "GRACIE LANE." and she scowled at me. hahahahah

after party hopped two parties before ending up with a bunch of people at 7/ll very very drunk [exhibit a: getting into jess's car by jumping through her window...while it was moving; exhibit b: wanting banana's]. we sloshed around there for awhile until we went to a feild and....well, just sloshed there too. we had a pillow in the woods so i went in and out of sleep at three in the morning in the woods. then to 7/11 again...where i bought a banana yaaaaaay. oh yea sid road in the trunk. slept the rest of the night in jess's mini. yayyy. ok i know the night sounds boring, but im just describing it badly. given we did absolutely nothing, but it was a very good time.

ok, work now..love

kaishijji @ 2004-06-04T00:46:00

2004-06-04T04:49:46Z

it is late,
i've just finished a ten page paper.
i want to go party. becaause sr prom is tonight but im tired and SATs are on saturday. humph.
decisions decisions

my binder's drenched in poetry

2004-06-02T12:40:00Z

together we watched as your
letters fell out through your eyes, all forming
faint songs i could put my mouth to, to
understand and
make words
that you would listen to
with such pretty ears

weroxusux: why havent you updated your livej ournal?

2004-06-01T00:12:51Z

weroxusux: there was a girl named kate,
who i really began to hate,
she always wore skirts,
and both boys AND girls called her a flirt
awesomeness is that her last name is lane,
she's a cool lil dane
you can call me ltizzle
cuz this poem is the shizzle

wwwwwlefkj